On October 27, I hopped on over to one of my favorite blogs, and was greeted with a post titled, “An Offer You Can’t Refuse.”
If you don’t have the time to click over and read it for youself, the general idea was this: This guy, Jack, who is brilliant, witty and has a great heart, has an awesome weight loss blog. Being so close to his goal, he wanted to give someone else the chance to be in the spotlight, to lose weight on his blog, to have the support of his wonderful readers. Sounded wonderful to me!! BUT… then I continued to read, and he also wanted MEASUREMENTS and PICTURES. *thud* Well, I responded in the comments and said,
this idea terrifies me, frankly–I can hardly admit my weight to my friends, let alone the entire world…But as I have Anti-Jared like weight to lose, I am seriously considering this–I’m already on a good 3 week run of consistent exercise…
Yep. Terrified me. That pretty much summed it up. I hadn’t, at that point, started my blog, hadn’t come out of hiding to my friends and the world. Still, the idea nagged at me. I thought about it. I prayed about it. I thought and prayed and thought some more. Finally, five days later, this is what I emailed to Jack:
If it’s not too late, I wanted to let you know I’m interested in being held accountable by the world! I wasn’t kidding when I said I’ve got Anti-jared proportions of weight to lose; I’m currently 411 lbs and have been up and down before…last great effort at weight loss was a few years ago when I got down to 273 from 331…I was even an aerobics instructor at that time (loved it how people would react when they walked into my class compared to how they reacted AFTER the class!) Thought I had a handle on it; Stopped going to WW meetings, oh, and got pregnant, and that’s when I stopped exercising and stopped paying attention to what was going into my mouth. Four years later, I’ve gained 140 lbs!! *thud* I’m 37, and I homeschool, and I am sick of not being able to do the things with my children and husband that I would like to do. This is my 4th week of getting up at 5 am and heading to the gym–I have worked up to 35 to 40 minutes of cardio, usually divided between the treadmill and eliptical. I have also been pumping iron (RAWR!!), but not this morning, since my dang elbow is killing me (used to be a waitress; oh wait, I’m a mom–I still am!) 😉
Later that day, I got a response. The first sentence said this:
I’d already chosen four individuals to go into my Witness Reduction Program, and felt like that was probably all I could handle, but your email pretty much hit all the buttons of what I was looking for with this. You really seem ready to make a big change and I think it’d be exciting to be a part of it.
Whoo hoo! I am really blessed to have this opportunity, and just so thankful. It’s great to be in league with people who have the same struggles, who are on the path and who have been successful. It inspires me so much to read their experiences and thoughts. To see the before and after pics. I want to have my own set some day–to help people see that it can be done, it is possible, and let them know that they can do it too!! That’s what people like Jack and Tony have done for me.
Today Jack featured me in his blog. Here is the link:
Toward the end of the post, Jack says this:
I’d like to take credit for creating the spark that’s slowly turning into a raging inferno inside of Billie, but I think I’m more of a witness than a catalyst.
Catalyst: an agent that provokes or speeds significant change or action.
Has Jack been a catalyst? You better believe it. And so have all of you who have encouraged me, cheered for me, prayed for me. I have never felt more encouraged in my life. Thanks, everyone, for all the kind words. They really do help me drag my butt out of bed at ridiculous o’clock in the morning. =)